There are times in your life when everything just comes to a screeching hault...Tonight happened to be one of these moments. When I thought I had come so far and had moved on more than I thought I could, I start missing him(my husband).

I called his mom, she's as crazy as ever, but lovable, and yet so two faced. I called his dad, he's getting old...His mind is slipping. Yeah, they'd heard from him, only trying to get fundage from them, as usual. You'd think by the time you are 30, you would not have to always rely on your mommy and daddy for help. I found Janice's e-mail today(my husbands sister) I will put our e-mails below.

Janice, I know that you don't want to have anything to do with me. I'm nottotally sure why, but please know that I do love your brother very much. Ihave no idea where he is, or if he's allright. I don't know if you are incontact with him or not, but if you are, please please please , if youwould maybe let him know he can contact me via e-mail? Thank you.

-April

(response)

I know what happened when you were at Lois's house(my mother in law) and you done what you felt you needed to do for whatever reasons.But fact is April I choose not to be any part of bull**** that goes on within the family. I do not go around and make trouble for others and refuse to associate with those that do. You may think I am being a hypocrite because of some statements I've made but those were my opinions voiced in my own home. I wish you all the happiness in the world and have no hard feelings, I just choose not to be involved in the drama. Dale is doing fine and is going on with his life which I think you should do. Both of you were miserable together, don't mistake loneliness for love is the best advice I can give you.Best wishes,

Janice


Previously I tried to speak to Janice, she hung up the phone on me promptly before saying anything. The second, and last(a few months ago) She stated she was busy and could not talk. Mind you, she had not heard from me for some months at that point. I must also point out that this is the woman who told me a year ago, that he loved me and I should take him back after I had left him before.

I've not an idea yet of how I am going to respond. Maybe I won't respond at all...Prolly not. I'm too much of a big mouth...