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God is good

God is good. He keeps on blessing me. Especially when I don't desearve it! He has brought someone into my life. *smiles* I am very thankfull...

happiness..

I had a wonderful Thanksgiving! Who hoo! :o) I went to my grandparents house in Kentucky. My brother and his wife were there, which was cool. I had not seen them since Stacies birthday in September. On Friday, my dad called me and told me that my grandfather is going to pay for my divorce!!! WOO HOO!!!!! :o). I am so blessed!!! God is truly good!!! :o)

lighthouse

I know life seems almost impossible to go through. But you can. Life is a wonderful gift given to us by a loving God. His son had to die so we could live. But in order to live the life he has prepared for us, we must first be born again. There is so much to be gained for living the life God has planned for us. It's so hard to stay in His will for us. It's so easy to veer off of course. God is like a lighthouse on an island. Those he has chosen, he has built a boat for. All around the shore are dark waters. It is constantly storming out there. In these deep dark waters are evil things whose only purpose is to hurt anyone around them. We are all in that sea. Some of us have boats. It's so tempting to drink the water. But the dark waters offer no refreshment. Only pain and suffering. Though it is raining and storming, the water is refreshing to the body and spirit. The boats are making there way to that distant shore with a lighthouse apon it. It's safe there. It will always be there, no matter how far off course we get, it is there, and we can see it. All we must do is leave everything behind us and sail to the lighthouse......

basic

when you have it all figured out
when it's all been taken care of
when you think nothing can go wrong
it does

how can you go foward while your moving backwards?
habits have a tendency to repeat themselves
only God can truly change us.
we just have to let Him.

so many blessings we take for granted.
so many distractions in this world
lets get back to the basics
Jesus, sweet sweet Jesus...

brink

Standing on the brink of something new
Looking out into a vast unknown
Not sure where the wind will blow
Trials and tribulations will come
They will be overcome
Keeping on the right path is harder than it sounds
Moving foward is possible
Moving on is possible
Mobing back is not an option
I've been wrong before
I will be wrong again
But for now I am taking each breath as my last
I could be wrong
But situations will come and go
But steadfastly God will always be there
Waiting to comfort me
Wanting to Love me as only He can
Wiping my many tears away
Lighting my path when it's dark as night
I will make it in this life
Jesus never said it was going to be easy
It was not easy for him live in this world
But He showed me it can be done, and done well
I could lose everything again, but I have never lost hope.
My hope is in You oh Lord

frustrations

so sick of frustrations
so sick of screwing up
can't i just go by in life un-noticed?
am i just this horrible person who screws up all the time?!

so sick of eggshells
so sick of being the stupid one
sick of being sick


i like to laugh
sometimes i need to cry
i want someone to dance in the rain with
i'm sick of being lonely
so far from where i used to be
so close to the next day
one day at a time
one step at a time
no longer dwelling on the hurt
trying to move on into the happiness

I want to walk by faith...
to dance in the meadows of sunlight
to sing so loudly and not care
to do what He wants of me
holding to His expectations, not mine
i will hold tight to Him who holds me tight