not what i need....

• guess you thought i was someone who i'm not
• my mind's not slipping
• the plug has not been pulled from my drain
• ignorance is not an option in this
• alert...
• yes that's it...
• cautions, you had better believe it!
• crazy? only some of the times
• optimistic?
• not even in the least

pompus...

• you think your smart?
• think you can pull that on me do you?
• think you can win
• think this is a game?
• think my heart is even interested in you?
• no
• what you got was a lonely girl
• who is not fool.
• who's been hurt way to much
• to let the likes of you do that too
• inconcievable to think
• you, smarter than me?
• i know more than you give me credit for
• i know the secret sayings you do say
• i know what webs you spin in others brains
• but guess what?
• you got caught
• in your stupid plot
• called to your face

Sacred...

• Nothing is sacred
• lies lies lies
• don't tell me I'm awesome
• and have pretty eyes
• Dare you to use me?
• I won't be used again
• can you even see that you stir me?
• I can't have you.
• you can't have me.
• messed up? yeah I think it is..
• So don't ask me to dance
• it will never happen again...

looking for orkut...

So I finally got a gmail account, and am now looking for an orkut account. GOOGLE IS MAKING SOME MONEY!!! They sure have caused a stir about all of this!

Well, life is good! Work is finally giving me the hours I need who hoo!!! I'm so glad things have been going so well. My brother has kindly offered to make me a computer!!!(for 400 bucks!) I have an awesome brother! Mom told him that I was wanting to go to college for graphic art on the computer, but my room-mates computer will not hold the program, well, the room-mate does not want me to use it for that, but anywhoo. Life Is Good!!!!

Sometimes we have to wait...

Good things come to those who wait... It's true! I have waited TWO MONTHS for my car to get fixed, and now it is!!! I'm so happy! I was ready to get a bicycle!!! You'd think it would not be very hard to save up money to get a car fixed, but you'd be wrong if your job is not giving enough hours! blah!!!

Anyways, I am starting to feel much more comfterable about divorce. It's weird. I called his family. His mom told me I should get a divorce from him. Make's me wonder what she know's. Maybe he's got a girlfriend, who knows. All I know is that my concious is clear! I wish him the best, but I don't think he will do what he should. He's too insecure. I really do love him, but what can I do? Wait around for the rest of my life hoping he will change? It's not going to happen. He's going to keep doing drugs, being paranoid, drinking, lying. Only God Almighty can change his heart, that's not something I can do. All I can do is pray for him. That's all I can do...